8 years

Dax Manix Myers Sharp turns 8!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Eight years ago I went to the hospital to experience one of the most joyous times of my life. After pushing for four and half hours I had a beautiful baby boy. Weighing in at a whole seven pounds three ounces.

One of the best babies anyone can ask for. He was such a daddy's boy and slept with him til he went to basic training.

He has a sense of humor and personality that brings joy into my life. I have no clue where the past eight years have gone.

Watching him grow into one of the best big brothers ever. Has brought serious joy to my heart. I don't think anyone could ask for a better bigger brother than him.

Dax Manix Myers Sharp mommy loves you more than anything in this world. I have no clue what my life would be like without you. You bring joy and smiles into my life. Watching you grow into the man your going to be has been one of the best things in my life. I want you to be the best you can be but be anything you want to be. I want the whole world for you.

Happy 8th Birthday Dax Manix mommy loves you.

Deployment crash

So it seems like if anything can go wrong in this deployment it surely is going to happen to me. Both vehicles are still having issues hoping they can get worked out soon. My parents came to see me and as soon as they walked in the door on Thursday they find out my dad's mom was getting rushed to the er. They gave her til the end of the weekend to live. Dax's birthday party was Saturday and five minutes after walking into the party my dad gets the phone call she had passed away. My parents left a day early to go help with funneral arrangements. Finally getting some answers with Dax and I guess I am finally ready to talk about them. Dax has always had some serious anger issues I always thought they were from daddy leaving so much. That is some of it after him starting one fire after John left and and tried starting another one I decied its time for something to happen. Dax has finally been diagnosed with ADHD we are getting some steps in place for him and its so nice finally figuring it out. He has been seeing a thearapist weekly so it has been helping some. I went to the doctor a few weeks ago for my yearly gyno visit. It had been 4 years since I had been. The past six months I have been having some womenly issues and had been trying to get in but sometime its so hard getting in. I finaly go see my doctor and she does the exam and I tell her everything going on she says to me Ashlie I am pretty concerned. I am going to be sending you to do lab work, setting up an ultrasound, and sending a referal in for you to see an actual gynocologist. She says its possible you can have uterine cancer. Something that you do not want to hear at all especially while your husband is thousands of miles away. I have done lab work. I go in tomorrow for my two ultrasounds and next Wednesday I will be going in to see the gynocologist. They are not releasing any results til I go see the doctor next Wednesday which makes me more anxiesios. I have been so stressed with these upcoming doctor aptoinments. I often cry at night just wanting to be in my husbands arms so he can tell me its going to be okay. This is something I never want to do on my own but at this moment I dont have an option. I only have a month til my husband comes home on r and r and I am hoping when he goes back things will go better and time flies for the end.

Times like these

Times like these I wish my husband was home so he can just wrap his arms around me and I could cry. Times like these I wish my husband could say everything will be okay. Time like these I wish I could pick up the phone and call my husband. Times like these I just want to hear my husbands voice. Times like these I miss my husband the most. Times like these makes me realize how much I truly love him and want him home.

Bloggy Slump.

So I have been in a bloggy slump or just a slump in life in general. Every time I get on to start blogging I decide I'm to tired and I decide against it. The past three weeks have been a little bit crazy stressful. Both vehicles are out of commission hoping to get the jeep fixed by this weekend so I at least have one vehicle. So since I haven't blogged in a while this one might be a little all over the place. My brother in law came and visited for a couple weeks he was suppose to stay 3 weeks but wanted to go home early. It was weird having another male in the home not my husband. It was a good visit overall. I have my best friend from Oklahoma coming to visit at the end of this month just for the weekend. I am excited that she is finally getting to come visit with Kaden. The kids know someone is coming but do not have a clue who is coming so when we go get them from the airport the kids will then find out. I also have my mom, dad, and maybe my sister Brandy's family coming around Dax's birthday. So as you can tell I have been busy with visitors it will probably slow down once my parents leave. We are officially 61 days away from my husband's R & R. I am so ready for him to be home its not even funny. I have officially enrolled in CTU ( Colorado Technical University) I will do 2 maybe 3 semesters online til Peyton starts preschool in the fall. I am going to get my associates through them and then I will change to a state college to get my bachelors and masters. It all depends on where we will be at when I need to start them. John is considering not reenlisting makes me nervous the army life has been our life for 8 years now I don't know what it will be like my husband being home regularly. Not knowing what he will be doing is scary. I think it will be best for our family though him being gone this time not getting to talk to him but once every week has been hard on me and the kids especially Peyton. I think this deployment has really gotten to him being away from the kids and him realizing how much he is missing out on. So Dax has been seeing a Psychiatrist we did some testing we should find out if its either ADHD or Bi Polar. I am ready to have results to start working on the outcome. It has been a struggle for awhile but now seeing we might get results makes me happy for him. That maybe he might have a better life. He does not know any different but I think it will make tons of difference. I was doing so good on working out and with me not having a reliable vehicle the past three weeks has made it hard for me to get to the gym. I am not giving up I will be back there as soon as I get a vehicle up and running. I have lost 30 pounds and 30 inches. I am determined to do the Iron Girl in August I have not been this excited about something in a long time. I guess this is enough update for now. Hopefully I get out of my bloggy slump soon.

Thankful

So I have to say I have made some amazing friends the past couple months. I have no clue what I would do without them during this deployment. They have made the time fly that is for sure. I am still very thankful for my other friends cause they have always been there for me no matter what. I have been laughing my butt off, working out enjoying it, cleaning my big ole house, hanging out, and chatting away with the great group of friend. Who honestly could say their friends come over to help you clean your garage that is packed full or just come hang out for hours upon end in my crazy so called life. They give great advice when needed and just listen to you grip about this deployment. I am so ready to go shopping tomorrow with the girls to get ready for our big girl night out. I am also excited for Halloween its going to be a blast that's for sure. So a funny thing my husband emails me and he says he has a whole pregnancy left of this deployment it made me laugh.

Funk of a Mood

So today marks the 3 month mark in this deployment. I don't know why but I am having a terrible time with this deployment. So Monday I got in this funk I do not get to talk to John but maybe once a week for like 20 min. I am very thankful for that time but I get sad because I wished I got to talk to him more often. So he calls me Monday and the conversation did not go as well as I had hoped. It was a whole three minute conversation getting off the phone not pleasant with each other. I have not talk to him yet. I think this is part of my funk. We have also switched up our workout routine and that usually sends me into a funk also I didn't realize this til it got pointed out to me today which it makes all the sense now. I seriously need to get out of this funk I only have two weeks til I have company coming and I need to crack down on this house on getting it organized. Since they will be staying for three weeks I just want to make sure everything will be prepared. I am officially starting to train for the Tri Lady next August I am quite scared to conquer this but I know if I put enough effort into it I know I will be able to do it. I have a girls night out at the end of this month and I think it will probably lift my spirits don't get me wrong I love my kids more than anything in this life but this mama needs some time to myself. It worked out perfect because I don't really trust new people watching the kids and since my brother in law will be here he will be watching the kids for me. I am very thankful for him willing to take time and watch kids for me while he is here. Getting into the swing of the kids being in school with the workout routine is going well. I only have til September til our new schedules start. Peyton will be in a mommy and me baking class, Dax will be in Kung Fu, and Trisha will be in ballet til at least December. I know it will be hectic busy but maybe time will fly. I only have 3 months til John comes home for R and R and it seems so far away. I know not every couple gets along 100% of the time its just a lot harder when they are away because we can't talk things out. I know its just a hump and I shouldn't let it get me down so much. I have some incredible friends here and away that help me get through this deployment and I would not have a clue what to do with out them. I know this blog is all over the place I haven't blogged in a while. I need to make a commitment to do it at least once a week.

Stressed to the Max

So to sit and say the past week was stressful much have been an understatement. Last Friday I had made Dax an appointment with the psycologist on Peterson Air Force Base because his anger issues has just spiraled out of hand. He has always had them but they have gotten progressivly worse sicne John left in May. Which is to be expected but its to the point I say what am I suppose to do and I cant expect teachers to over look the issue. I knew he had a wonderful teacher last year that knew how to deal with his anger but he is not always goign to have that. My life is crazy busy anyways. I went to register the kids in CYS so that I could take advantage of the free 16 hours of childcare a month while John is gone. Well that took forever. Got home from registering them to register Trisha in Ballet, Dax in Kung Fu, and Peyton in a mommy and me baking class since he is two he cant really take much. So writing all the dates on the calendar started stressing me out a little. Well the next day is the day we were suppose to go in and see the pyscologist about Dax. I check the mail and I had a letter in it saying at Trisha's physical for ballet she failed her hearing test and I needed to get ahold of the nurse to discuss what was going to happen. I knew i was going in that next day for Dax's appointment and I could talk to them then. So I talk to the nurse and she said that she would be getting more testing done either at the Airforce Academy or Fort Carson. That they would be contacting me about her appointment. I go talk to Dax's pscologist and discuss what hass been goign on with him. She thinks he either has ADHD, mood/anxiety disorder, or contect disorder and he would need more testing done and come up with a plan to deal with whatever he might have. She gives me a list of the best testers here in the Springs. I figured it would not be a big deal getting him in but most could not get him in til the middle of October and I dont know if I will be able to deal with this til then. I got lucky though cause one of the pyscologist that test and treats them could get him in at the end of August so I jumped on it. So I get the letter in the mail stating Trisha's audiology appooint is August 10 at 8 am and I am not allowed to bring any other kids. So trying to reschedule her was a true hassel 3 hours later I got her rescheduled for the end of August at Fort Carson. On top of all the kids issues that are happening and their appointments I have to put off my yearly appointment for another month because I cant find time to go with all of their appointments. I say to myself I have put it off for 4 years what is another month but this is something I really need to stop putting off and just go already. Stressed to the max leave it to me to wait til the weekend before they start school to go get their school supplies which costed me an arm and a leg. Then I am having problems with a lady a few doors down. Instead of talking to me like an adult about my dog she acts like a child. I am a person if you talk to me like an adult I will take care of the issue. However if you just assume I know there is a problem and think I am just ignoring its your problem because I did not know there was a problem so how am I suppose to knwo to fix it. So after I got this nasty little letter on my door yesterday I decied I have had enough with her. I go down to talk to her and instead of talking she has an attitude and immediatly starts yelling I can not and choose not to deal with people like her to much drama bs. She said she would continue to keep pestering me since I am not dealing with the situation. So I assume thats harrassment. I call the local police department and two and half hours later they show up. Thinking I have the right to ask someone to stay off my properity if I so choose to do so I guess I was completely wrong. Since my dog woke her up she has the right to come over here and talk to me however she so chooses to talk to me. I still think its bs but whatever. I am going to go invest in a no treaspassing sign and a bb gun and if she thinks she can continue to bother me she is all wrong cause i have the right to shoot if she treaspasses. Im thinking about taking a gun safety coarse but I am kinda leary about having a gun in the house with the kids. I have been putting Lucy my dog inside everynight now so if she says its my dog she is dead wrong. So on top of all the stress goign on I took the kids to IHOP yesterday and broke a tooth man can't I just catch a break. Times like these I wish my husband was home or I at least could just pick up the phone and call him. I miss you Johnathon Leon.

Visitors

My bestie Jen came and seen me for just about two weeks. I was so excited that someone was coming to keep me company while my husband was gone. I had been counting down for over a month now for her to come. I had a pretty much full house. It was Jen, her sister Jessica for a week, and her four kids D.J., Katelyn, Tyler, and Cody. I loved every minute of it even the fighting amongst the kids. The time flew by as she was here. Probably because we were so busy I think we had maybe 2 down days if even that. It was nice being able to have adult conversation daily with someone. Someone to help you around the house. Help prepare meals and help clean up afterwards. I don't think she realized how much it meant to me her coming to see me. I have been having a real rough time with John being gone this time and not knowing if anyone is going to come see you while he is gone makes you more depressed about the situation. So that she came and stayed with me for a long period of time made probably this whole deployment have some rays of sunshine in it. I just wished she lived closer so I could see her more often. I am looking at what to look forward to next we have, school starting, the boys' birthdays, R and R I'm most excited about this one, holidays, my trip to Kentucky to see Jen, and then it will be time to start counting down til this deployment is over with. Now my house is full of kids having a sleep over and Monday we will be preparing to start school and this mama is very excited.

9 years and counting...........

Once in awhile right in the middle of an ordinary life love gives us a fairy tale

Nine years ago today I was getting my hair and make up done. Getting a big white dress on which took three people to get on me. I was extremely nervous to walk down the aisle. As soon as I seen his face all the nerves went away. The day I said I do made me one of the happiest days of my life. We may have been young and had no clue what we were getting ourselves into.

The years have flown by and it seems like yesterday when I was saying I do. What a journey we have been through together. I have fallen more in love with him through the years and I didn't even think that was possible. Don't get me wrong we have had our rough times but who hasn't it has made us a stronger couple.

Johnathon Leon I love you with all my heart. We might be many miles apart but your still in my heart. You make me one of the happiest people alive. If you were not apart of my life I would be so lost. You complete me and can't wait til your home again.

Your love provides me shelter,
from the rain, hail, and storms of life,
that I face as I race through life.

Your embrace provides me warmth,
from the cold, harshness and stings of society,
that I endure as I race through life.

Your care provides me a garden,
where nourishment, beauty and joy blooms,
that I appreciate as I race through life.

Your eyes provide me a mirror,
where illumination, reflection and clarity speak,
that I look upon as I race through life.

Your soul provides me a key to,
where values, contentment and belonging reside,
that I grasp onto as I race through life.

Your love as I race through life,
Proves to be resilient and immeasurable,
On days where I lose sight of my bearings,
You are like a lighthouse beckoning me home.

For all that you are and how you are with me,
I'm now sending you a bright love signal,
You're someone I'll hold onto for dear life,
As I race through the rest of my life!

Time for an update I think so

So we are officially 2 months down on this deployment. Some weeks have dragged and some have flown by. The kids still have days they miss their daddy terribly. So I'm so excited right now because my best friend left Kentucky this morning to head this way she should be here sometime Wednesday and be staying for a couple weeks. I have missed living by her and this visit will be extremely nice and much needed. I am so extremely happy we did a weigh in and tapping the other day since starting my working out I have lost 22 pounds and have lost 15 inches. My biggest lost in 3 weeks was my waist it was almost 4 inches. I have been extremely dedicated and knowing all my hard work is paying off. I am so ready to see where I will be at the end of this year hopefully I will be able to buy a cute two piece for John and I's trip to Hawaii next summer. I got my anniversary gift the other day it was a couple weeks early but I love it he got me a nook color. I have already read one book and have started the next. Hopefully I keep on top of the blog I have been a slacker and hoping to get a camera soon.

4th of July

Today as the 4th of July I am sitting outside while my older two are playing and my youngest is in bed. The nice Colorado breeze blowing my flag and my big yellow ribbon on my tree. To remember all that have fought for this country and all that are fighting for this country. Holidays make me miss my husband so much and I might be in a funk but its because of him being gone I can respect this holiday so much more. Its because of soldiers like him that are selfless enough to give up their time with their families and friends to go off to keep us safe at home. They should take pride in what they do for this country. I am very proud that I can call my husband my hero for everything he does at work and at home. I just want to take my time and express how much I appreciate all the soldiers and families for what they give up to make us a great nation.

Just a little bit of everything

So when I started this blog I would blog more often than I have been I guess you could say I'm in a blogger slump. So we are past our first month of deployment thank goodness. I am so ready for July to get here it will be a super busy month. July has a bunch of small events happening and then my friend Jen will be here around the 13th and stay about 2 weeks and I am super excited. Knowing after she leaves the kids will start school a few days after then John will be home for r and r a few months after that. I am so looking forward to r and r even though we will not be doing much of anything. I am hoping he will be home for his birthday it all depends when he leaves from there. Calling around for tackle football I can not find any that Dax is old enough to play he played tackle when we lived in Oklahoma and I do not want to put him in flag for one year then the following year I will be able to put him in tackle. So I think I will find another sport for him to play this year thinking maybe karate might him let out some of his anger and to control it really thinking about it. So we finally did our month weigh in and taping to say I was upset is an understatement. I am truly disappointed in myself. I only lost 7 and 7/8 of an inch I know I have to step it up in order to meet my goals. I want most of my weight off by the time he comes home for r and r. I am still having a hard time getting use to this deployment and not getting to talk to John very often. I know I need to stop comparing it to last deployment but its so hard. I am planning our family vacation and then john and I's get away for next June. Planning two things at once is a little difficult but I pretty much have our family vacation to California planned on what we want to do. Probably in January I will make all the reservations needed for it. The Hawaii trip for me and John we will be booking flights in November for it I am hoping to find some good flight deals for it. I am finally going to the doctor this week about my shins I'm so tired of them killing me. I sure hope this week flies by.

Productive

Here lately I have not been feeling up to doing anything at all just doing what I need to do just to get by and not look like a slob. I don't know what my deal has been since my husband has left I just don't want to do anything. Today I woke up feeling the same didn't think I was going to accomplish anything. I went to the gym and seriously kicked some butt on the elliptical I am not a fan of that machine but I was a fan today. I was so sweaty when I left the gym always a good feeling means I had a good calorie burner of a workout. I got home still not feeling up to doing anything. After dinner I don't know something just hit me and man did I get some serious housework done and got the kid to clean their rooms with not to much hassle. I am hoping I can finish up bathrooms tomorrow and start organizing the house. I am the worst about organizing I wish I would have gotten that gene but I so didn't. I even got the doctor called about getting a physical and getting my stupid shins looked at to see what he has to say. Lucky enough they got me in next Wednesday so just have to put up with it for another week. John and I even got to discuss our trip to Hawaii next summer and the things we would like to be able to do while we are there. I only have a month to get this house organized and I know it will not be a big deal if I don't because my bestie Jen loves me anyways. It would be nice to have it done though. I seriously need to haul some stuff off to the dump out of my garage but I have to find someone with a truck first. This blog is so all over the place but its just what came to me and I wrote it down. I am hoping for a month of productivity.

Circus Time

Dax, Trisha, and Peyton waiting for the circus to start.

So yesterday the kids and I got up and ready and headed to the Ringling Bros. Circus. I had never taken the kids to a circus so it was a first for all three of them. We went early to the pre show and got to go on the floor to see all the action. Then we headed to our upper level seats which I will not complain you still got to see the whole show and the tickets were free through the frg. Dax loved every part of it he set so still through the whole show. The only thing he said was those guys are not wearing a shirt when the acrobats were doing their part. Trisha loved most of it her favorite part was probably the tight rope people. Peyton was pretty tired and crabby but he did pretty good he just couldn't decide if he wanted to sit in my lap or in his own chair. The tigers were his favorite he set and watched them. He would clap for them as they were doing their show. I am so use to the small town circus which only lasted 30 minutes and didn't have a very good show. This one lasted two and half hours long and I loved it I felt like a little kid waiting for the show to start. I am hoping we will get to go next year as a whole family.

Emotions

I don't know what my deal is this week I feel like my emotions have been running high all week. I know some of the stuff I am upset about is stupid and I am totally overreacting. I feel like I just want to sit down and cry even though we are having a good day. I don't know if its maybe that I just totally feel completely alone right now. Its a feeling I hate more than anything. I just want to become my chipper self again and don't have a clue how to get there. Maybe me staying at home tomorrow all day might help out some. I am hoping my next week I get out of my funk of a mood.

Going Good

So last night I realized I hadn't blogged in awhile but was to tired to blog so I went to bed. Things are going very well and so busy so in the evenings I'm just so tired and ready for bed early. Where to begin to catch up. The gym is still going awesome and I have to say I truly still enjoy it except my stupid shins still kill me when I run I have no clue what is up with it but its getting on my last nerves. I did get on the scale I have been trying to avoid it as much as possible because nothing was happening and when I got on I am down 15 pounds so proud of myself. The kids have been listening pretty well and helping me more around the house. We went to our first sky sox game tonight and had a blast I think Peyton enjoyed it more than anyone. I think I am going to take them sometime on a Friday night so we can watch the fireworks inside the field we get to watch them in front of our house but I think it would be fun. We have circus tickets for Saturday and I am super excited it will be the first for all the kids. My camera still broken I have to send it into Sony I sure hope they can fix it I don't feel like buying a new one driving me nuts not having one. I got some of the best news ever today my bestie is coming in mid July don't know how long she is staying but I will let her stay as long as she will stay. We are a month down into this deployment and I cant believe how fast the time is going it seems to be flying probably because I am so busy. When school starts I think it will slow down some. I am falling behind on my house work and need to catch up especially since I will have house guest next month. I am finally getting John's first care package together and I truly hope he likes his father's day gift it is so hard to come up with stuff while they are gone. Knowing they will be moving around so much so you don't want to send them a lot but you also don't want them to think you have forgotten about them. The kids love getting boxes together for their dad. The kiss jars you can finally start telling there is some missing. So I think that is it for now.

Crazy week

Man its been a crazy week and I don't think this summer is going to be anything but crazy if it keeps up this rate. Usually with the kids off summer I look forward to sleeping in and that is not happening. I get up every day and head to the gym. This week at the gym was a funk of a gym week. Since they were closed Monday I went in and kicked my butt in the gym I was incredibly proud I did it myself. Wednesday was a funk of day in the gym I don't know what my deal was I felt like I was having to pull myself along the rail to get around boy it was not a pretty site. I went in Thursday and Friday and gave it my all and overall was pretty proud of myself. Adding more weight to the stuff we do makes me feel proud. The kids have been overall pretty well behaved for me this week. I still really in a funk last deployment I heard from John everyday to every other day and we talked on the web cam but with this deployment he is super busy and I hear from him once a week towards the end of the week I start getting cranky and if your around me I would apologize before hand and if you see me cranky you will know why. This weekend is going to be super busy for me Saturday I will be working out, then taking the kids swimming, then we have a birthday party to attend to and if I'm not worn out by the end of it then I am going to try and do some housework. I feel like I'm truly falling behind on my housework and its driving me crazy. Sunday is going to be a fun day with Christine we will be heading to the zoo, heading to Manitou Springs to The Olive Tap, we will be reweighing remeasuring and doing more pics, and we will be having a dinner together I'm super excited for this weekend. I am going crazy with out my camera its been broken for a week now probably why I haven't posted any at all.

Venting

Okay so I am incredibly frustrated right now at TMOBILE. When John left we shut down 2 of our 3 phone lines and kept mine on. I am about 3/4 into my contract I called and switched my plan to the unlimited 79 plan which will save us tons of money. I got online to look at upgrading my phone cause I hate this one. I push upgrade phone and this stupid message came across stating the primary account holder could upgrade it. So I was already upset and I call in and tell him my husband is currently deployed and we had shut down two of the lines and since they are shut the other two down I could not get online in those accounts. I asked if there was any way I could switch the primary account to my phone line since its the only one on. He says yeah if you husband calls in and says its okay. My name has been on the account since 04 when we opened the account. I pay the bills and I am the one that set the account up that way in the first place. He says I can upgrade it on the phone or you can go into a store and do it. The point is i cant do nothing online and I want to be able to. I said I barely talk to him myself do you really think he is going to be able to call you and set on hold just to change this. I have a power of attorney for these reasons he says well a power of attorney wont help seriously I have been with you guys long enough to know I have used it before. Since he did not want to listen to what I had to say I ask for a manager get put back on hold seriously. The same guy comes back on and says my manager agrees with me and nothing we can do unless he calls in. I get furious this is when I feel my face get red. I said seriously I did not asked to be relayed messages I wanted to talk to a manager I have that right and I choose to speak to them and he kept going on and on and on. So finally he transfers me over. I tell the manager what was happening he says do we have the power of attorney on file I say no he says fax it in and we can get that changed for you so tomorrow I'm taking it into a tmobile store tomorrow to make the changes to my online account. I'm not stupid I know what I can and can not do I have been with this company for to long. ERRRRRRRRRR

A week of workout

My workout week is Monday through Saturday Sunday is my day off. I go to the Y two hours a day. This is what my week of workout consisted of 102 three position calf raises, 4 planks, 36 leg presses, 1/2 track lunges, 30 frog jumps, 36 ab roll outs, 36 bosu ab ups, 196 sit ups on ball, 66 mountain climbers, 75 each leg hydrants, 2 wall sits, 150 push ups, 5 supermans, 36 pull downs, 36 shoulders, 36 freemotion ball crunch, 36 skull crushes, 36 behind head pull ups, 15 pull ups, 36 bicep curls, 14 dips. I also did 3 miles on the bike, jogged the track 14 times, walked 10 miles, did 6 miles on the elliptical. Next week we are going to be turning up the heat and adding more going to try a few classes out. I love having a work out buddy it helps tons. If you asked me last month if I liked working out i would tell you no way but if you ask me now my answer would be I love it. If your starting to workout I would say write everything down helps to go back when you feel like you havent done anything and actually be able to say I did do something. Tomorrow is suppose to be my day off but I will proably do some stuff on the wii fit and get on the treadmill for a bit. The y is closed on Monday so we are going to workout at the park so the kids can play. Get up and get on the move love it.

So.......

So we are on a holiday weekend without the hubby being here. Yesterday while working out at the Y I seen a bunch of military people didn't hit me til the end of my workout if my hubby was here he would have had a four day weekend. I'm not sad about it just kinda hit me. I don't think it will be to bad this weekend not really doing much other than working out and cleaning. I'm fixing to get my hubby's first care package together it will be his fathers day gift he said not to send a bunch since he will be moving alot I think I have came up with a cute idea really cant say what til he gets it since he reads my blog. This past week has been a pretty good week all in all had a few moments with the kids. I have came to realize this deployment is so much different than last the last one I heard from him so much more than I do this one. We are on day five without getting to talk to him. The days I get to talk to him are so much better but I am not complaining I am grateful I get to talk to him at all. So much still up in the air about r and r I'm so ready for his r and r but I know its still awhile off. I am truly thankful for the workouts and my workout buddy because I don't think I would be doing as well without it. Last night was the kids first night of summer so we stayed up watched Rio and the fireworks. More fireworks tonight the kids are really excited. Next week should be a pretty exciting week got some stuff planned with the kids I'm kinda going with the flow trying to not make to many plans so I don't get to overwhelmed.

summer's comming

So tomorrow is the kids last day of school then they will be out til August 2. I'm trying to plan lots of stuff for them to do. We will be going to the dollar theater alot cause Kung Fu Panda 2, Cars 2, Happy Feet 2, and Transformers 3 is coming out. I'm pretty sure more will come out also but I will go with the flow on that one. The movie theater up the street has a water area for the kids to play in so why not. I'm also trying to plan out some crafty things for the kids to do I have a few ideas not many. I want to get out and explore as much of Colorado with the kids. I want them to keep busy keep active I always want my kids to be active I think its very important. Park days I'm pretty sure we will have lots of those and we have plenty of parks here so we shouldn't get tired of one park. Water play will probably be daily at our house as soon as it gets warm enough to do so. The Y has an indoor pool I'm kinda nervous about taking 3 by myself but the older two are fishes in the water so we should be okay. I'm excited and hope that my bestie gets to come at the end of July cause I would totally be stoked. The kids don't have a long summer just 2 months so I'm pretty sure time will fly. I know I will find tons more for them to do. I cant believe next year I will have a first grader and second grader boy howdy how they grow up fast. What a fantastic summer we are going to have cause we are going to make it fantastic.

Testing

So we are officially over the second week and starting the third week. The past couple days my kids are seriously testing me I guess they want to see how far they can push this mama since daddy is gone. They have been grounded pretty much the whole time he has been gone they are suppose to get ungrounded this weekend. The toy room is a wreck that is one chore I give up on doing it seems if I do it then it just gets worse the next time. I told them they have til Saturday to get it clean if its not clean by then I'm taking trash bags up their and its going in the trash. I don't think they believe me but I'm going to do it then maybe they will believe me. Dax has back talked me the past couple days and this mama is not putting up with it. Trisha's sassy little self boy howdy its not a good thing. Peyton's fits are getting ridiculous. I feel like i want to pull my hair out but I have to remember breathe in breathe out. Last deployment was nice cause my mother in law would take them every so often so I could have some me time sometimes I wished I lived closer cause some me time would be wonderful right now. I'm hoping to keep them so busy this summer that they will want to pass out at night so I can at least have a couple hours to myself. I hope tomorrow they wake up and I can at least have 2 out of the 3 not wanting to test me I know 3 out of 3 would not happen. I hope the rest of the evening goes better than it has.

Graduation

So my one and only girl Trisha Ann graduated from kindergarten today or as they call it advancement to first grade. She was excited but does not want to go to school all day next year she is to funny. The program was really cute they sang a song called my dad is in the army i have to say i cried a little sad that John had to miss out on seeing it. I don't have a video camera so i could not record it but they sale DVDs and I bought one for him to send off as soon as I have an address.

After they did the program they went into the advancement and called each child to get their diploma. She was super excited to get hers and after they got their diplomas they got to come sit with their family Peyton was so excited he yelled real loud ran up to her and gave her big hug it was super cute.

After they all got their diplomas we had to go back to her class and get her book bag and her jacket. We waited around so we could take pictures with her diploma. Her teacher came in and we took a picture with her teacher also. I know she is sad that her dad was not there but he did get to call her this morning before school so that helps some.

Dax was sad he did not get to go. He was super lovey dovey to her and was proud of her.

I am super proud of her she did so well this year. Her teacher has told me she was one of the brightest little girls in her class. I think she will soar through school I love you very much Trisha Ann Myers Sharp.

Missing Daddy

So Peyton woke today in a terrible mood I know he is missing his daddy tons. He was such a turd all day long doesnt help that John called yesterday but Peyton wouldn't get on the phone. So it proably been a week and half since he has talked to his daddy. Its so hard when they are so young to fully understand where daddy is and why he hasnt came home yet. All Dax talks about when daddy comes home this when daddy comes home that at least he some what understand how long he will be gone for. Trisha is so emotional about daddy not being here. I can tell its full swing of missing daddy for all of them. They are starting to sleep with me more and more especially Dax them waking up in the middle of the night happens every night now. Maybe its wrong of me to say I get angry I have to do this on my own sometime I am angry my kids have to go through this. Then about 30 minutes later I am over it. I have my moments of angry cause I miss him tons I miss hearing from him. Last deployment I heard from him so much more than we do now and he had internet so we got to video chat pretty often. With him moving around so much I just dont think its worth him getting internet til he is one place for awhile. I know he is working tons and I know he misses us. I just know we all miss him so much and cant wait til he is back home.

weekend

So here we are at the end of the second weekend of John being gone. We were busy for the most part of it. Saturday we woke up and headed off to the Y for a killer workout on my arms and abs I know the kids enjoy going to play with other kids which is nice. Did some spring cleaning even though I have tons more to do but a mother's work is never done. Today we were invited over to Christine's for lunch the kids enjoyed playing with Brady and I enjoyed conversation with Christine always nice to have someone to talk to that knows what your going through. We weighed in and measured ourselves and took our before pictures. We will go back in two weeks to reweigh and remeasure. The kids and I came home I have been working on laundry. The kids are suppose to be grounded but they have listened pretty well this weekend and did what I asked them to so since it was nice outside I let them enjoy a couple hours outside. Trisha has really figured out how to ride her bike with her training wheels. I know they always sleep better when they play hard. I honestly have to say time is going by pretty fast seems like forever away still but I know i will look back and say where did the time go. I finally got to talk to John today the first time in a week I did get to chat with him through IM a couple times but I love hearing his voice makes my day. It indeed made my day where I had a smile on my face pretty much all day. He has requested for r and r in November so I hope he gets it. This is the kids last week of school I know they are ready for summer time and they only have two whole months out and time will fly. I can't believe how big they are getting Dax is completing the first grade and Trisha Kindergarten how it makes me feel old. Truly I know I'm not that old just makes me feel old.

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Intense Week.

So this week was the start of my diet and exercising and I have to say what a week. Going without soda for a week has been intense I'm craving one like no other but know I cant have it. My diet is going really well and very proud of myself did have a donut but shhhh don't tell no one lol. I have been having some amazing workouts with Christine it is always helpful to have a workout buddy more motivation. To say I'm soar might just be an understatement. No pain no gain is my motto right now. So if we reach our goals which mine is 55 pounds we are going sky diving pretty excited more determined than ever to get to my goal. I have lost 7 pounds within this first week which pumps me up. I have had more energy after working out then I have had in a long time. I am getting very addicted to working out. Plus working out gives me two hours of adult time no kids bothering me kinda keeps me sane through this deployment. Sunday is our off time to recuperate and trust me i need it. I am so excited to become the new me.

First Week

Okay we have gotten through this first week of deployment. I have had my emotional moments but I have to say I am doing pretty darn good. I am on my second day not hearing from John and I have to say I have been to busy to even notice. I love the busy days just love them they keep my mind else where than the deployment. I have to be honest and say this week has flown by. From being sick to going and hanging out with some of the 615th wives and working out with Christine this has been an overall been a good week. I had my down times but I don't want to be a Debbie downer the whole time. Another plus note this week I have lost 5 pounds totally proud of myself I am setting to make my goals. The kids are missing their dad and I hope they get the opportunity to talk to him this weekend especially Dax he hasn't talked to him at all. Lets hope the rest of the 51 weeks go by as fast as this one did.

Rollercoaster of a Day

I feel like I have been on a roller coaster today and didn't know if i wanted to get off or stay on. I woke up to email from my husband telling me the changes ahead which I know it will be fine. The deployment itself is a roller coaster. I know it hard not to stress and worry when you get emails telling you change ahead. Steal dealing with issues that happened over the weekend don't have a clue where they are headed and I am scared to death i feel like i am a good mom. I got up and started in on my diet and my walking so proud to start out the day that way. Then as I'm on the plato of the roller coaster things start going south. Someone I hold very dear to my heart we had a disagreement. Some things maybe i shouldn't have said but I was upset. I was an emotional wreck after getting off the phone I think i had a good cry for about 2 hours and i don't mean i cried i literally had huge alligator tears i finally broke with everything the morning was handing me i couldn't take it any more. I was hoping my hubby would call to some what brighten my day but didn't happen. The afternoon started my uphill climb of the roller coaster I had to go get some stuff done so that I could go over and meet some ladies from the 615th. Got the kids from school finished getting ready I was pretty much running behind all day long. I got to hang out with some of the ladies from the 615th I have to say I truly enjoyed myself first time in the past week. I am truly grateful i got the invite. I know they probably are think I'm never inviting that weird lady tomorrow. Now I'm on my down hill to end this roller coaster I am exhausted and extremely sad. I am sad the thing went the way they did today. I am to tired to workout tonight. I am missing my hubby like crazy but i have to say I am officially one week down. I get to see these 3 wonderful kids every day and they are bound and determined to put a smile on my face everyday this is what i live for.