Just a little bit of everything

So when I started this blog I would blog more often than I have been I guess you could say I'm in a blogger slump. So we are past our first month of deployment thank goodness. I am so ready for July to get here it will be a super busy month. July has a bunch of small events happening and then my friend Jen will be here around the 13th and stay about 2 weeks and I am super excited. Knowing after she leaves the kids will start school a few days after then John will be home for r and r a few months after that. I am so looking forward to r and r even though we will not be doing much of anything. I am hoping he will be home for his birthday it all depends when he leaves from there. Calling around for tackle football I can not find any that Dax is old enough to play he played tackle when we lived in Oklahoma and I do not want to put him in flag for one year then the following year I will be able to put him in tackle. So I think I will find another sport for him to play this year thinking maybe karate might him let out some of his anger and to control it really thinking about it. So we finally did our month weigh in and taping to say I was upset is an understatement. I am truly disappointed in myself. I only lost 7 and 7/8 of an inch I know I have to step it up in order to meet my goals. I want most of my weight off by the time he comes home for r and r. I am still having a hard time getting use to this deployment and not getting to talk to John very often. I know I need to stop comparing it to last deployment but its so hard. I am planning our family vacation and then john and I's get away for next June. Planning two things at once is a little difficult but I pretty much have our family vacation to California planned on what we want to do. Probably in January I will make all the reservations needed for it. The Hawaii trip for me and John we will be booking flights in November for it I am hoping to find some good flight deals for it. I am finally going to the doctor this week about my shins I'm so tired of them killing me. I sure hope this week flies by.

Productive

Here lately I have not been feeling up to doing anything at all just doing what I need to do just to get by and not look like a slob. I don't know what my deal has been since my husband has left I just don't want to do anything. Today I woke up feeling the same didn't think I was going to accomplish anything. I went to the gym and seriously kicked some butt on the elliptical I am not a fan of that machine but I was a fan today. I was so sweaty when I left the gym always a good feeling means I had a good calorie burner of a workout. I got home still not feeling up to doing anything. After dinner I don't know something just hit me and man did I get some serious housework done and got the kid to clean their rooms with not to much hassle. I am hoping I can finish up bathrooms tomorrow and start organizing the house. I am the worst about organizing I wish I would have gotten that gene but I so didn't. I even got the doctor called about getting a physical and getting my stupid shins looked at to see what he has to say. Lucky enough they got me in next Wednesday so just have to put up with it for another week. John and I even got to discuss our trip to Hawaii next summer and the things we would like to be able to do while we are there. I only have a month to get this house organized and I know it will not be a big deal if I don't because my bestie Jen loves me anyways. It would be nice to have it done though. I seriously need to haul some stuff off to the dump out of my garage but I have to find someone with a truck first. This blog is so all over the place but its just what came to me and I wrote it down. I am hoping for a month of productivity.

Circus Time

Dax, Trisha, and Peyton waiting for the circus to start.

So yesterday the kids and I got up and ready and headed to the Ringling Bros. Circus. I had never taken the kids to a circus so it was a first for all three of them. We went early to the pre show and got to go on the floor to see all the action. Then we headed to our upper level seats which I will not complain you still got to see the whole show and the tickets were free through the frg. Dax loved every part of it he set so still through the whole show. The only thing he said was those guys are not wearing a shirt when the acrobats were doing their part. Trisha loved most of it her favorite part was probably the tight rope people. Peyton was pretty tired and crabby but he did pretty good he just couldn't decide if he wanted to sit in my lap or in his own chair. The tigers were his favorite he set and watched them. He would clap for them as they were doing their show. I am so use to the small town circus which only lasted 30 minutes and didn't have a very good show. This one lasted two and half hours long and I loved it I felt like a little kid waiting for the show to start. I am hoping we will get to go next year as a whole family.

Emotions

I don't know what my deal is this week I feel like my emotions have been running high all week. I know some of the stuff I am upset about is stupid and I am totally overreacting. I feel like I just want to sit down and cry even though we are having a good day. I don't know if its maybe that I just totally feel completely alone right now. Its a feeling I hate more than anything. I just want to become my chipper self again and don't have a clue how to get there. Maybe me staying at home tomorrow all day might help out some. I am hoping my next week I get out of my funk of a mood.

Going Good

So last night I realized I hadn't blogged in awhile but was to tired to blog so I went to bed. Things are going very well and so busy so in the evenings I'm just so tired and ready for bed early. Where to begin to catch up. The gym is still going awesome and I have to say I truly still enjoy it except my stupid shins still kill me when I run I have no clue what is up with it but its getting on my last nerves. I did get on the scale I have been trying to avoid it as much as possible because nothing was happening and when I got on I am down 15 pounds so proud of myself. The kids have been listening pretty well and helping me more around the house. We went to our first sky sox game tonight and had a blast I think Peyton enjoyed it more than anyone. I think I am going to take them sometime on a Friday night so we can watch the fireworks inside the field we get to watch them in front of our house but I think it would be fun. We have circus tickets for Saturday and I am super excited it will be the first for all the kids. My camera still broken I have to send it into Sony I sure hope they can fix it I don't feel like buying a new one driving me nuts not having one. I got some of the best news ever today my bestie is coming in mid July don't know how long she is staying but I will let her stay as long as she will stay. We are a month down into this deployment and I cant believe how fast the time is going it seems to be flying probably because I am so busy. When school starts I think it will slow down some. I am falling behind on my house work and need to catch up especially since I will have house guest next month. I am finally getting John's first care package together and I truly hope he likes his father's day gift it is so hard to come up with stuff while they are gone. Knowing they will be moving around so much so you don't want to send them a lot but you also don't want them to think you have forgotten about them. The kids love getting boxes together for their dad. The kiss jars you can finally start telling there is some missing. So I think that is it for now.

Crazy week

Man its been a crazy week and I don't think this summer is going to be anything but crazy if it keeps up this rate. Usually with the kids off summer I look forward to sleeping in and that is not happening. I get up every day and head to the gym. This week at the gym was a funk of a gym week. Since they were closed Monday I went in and kicked my butt in the gym I was incredibly proud I did it myself. Wednesday was a funk of day in the gym I don't know what my deal was I felt like I was having to pull myself along the rail to get around boy it was not a pretty site. I went in Thursday and Friday and gave it my all and overall was pretty proud of myself. Adding more weight to the stuff we do makes me feel proud. The kids have been overall pretty well behaved for me this week. I still really in a funk last deployment I heard from John everyday to every other day and we talked on the web cam but with this deployment he is super busy and I hear from him once a week towards the end of the week I start getting cranky and if your around me I would apologize before hand and if you see me cranky you will know why. This weekend is going to be super busy for me Saturday I will be working out, then taking the kids swimming, then we have a birthday party to attend to and if I'm not worn out by the end of it then I am going to try and do some housework. I feel like I'm truly falling behind on my housework and its driving me crazy. Sunday is going to be a fun day with Christine we will be heading to the zoo, heading to Manitou Springs to The Olive Tap, we will be reweighing remeasuring and doing more pics, and we will be having a dinner together I'm super excited for this weekend. I am going crazy with out my camera its been broken for a week now probably why I haven't posted any at all.