Stressed to the Max

So to sit and say the past week was stressful much have been an understatement. Last Friday I had made Dax an appointment with the psycologist on Peterson Air Force Base because his anger issues has just spiraled out of hand. He has always had them but they have gotten progressivly worse sicne John left in May. Which is to be expected but its to the point I say what am I suppose to do and I cant expect teachers to over look the issue. I knew he had a wonderful teacher last year that knew how to deal with his anger but he is not always goign to have that. My life is crazy busy anyways. I went to register the kids in CYS so that I could take advantage of the free 16 hours of childcare a month while John is gone. Well that took forever. Got home from registering them to register Trisha in Ballet, Dax in Kung Fu, and Peyton in a mommy and me baking class since he is two he cant really take much. So writing all the dates on the calendar started stressing me out a little. Well the next day is the day we were suppose to go in and see the pyscologist about Dax. I check the mail and I had a letter in it saying at Trisha's physical for ballet she failed her hearing test and I needed to get ahold of the nurse to discuss what was going to happen. I knew i was going in that next day for Dax's appointment and I could talk to them then. So I talk to the nurse and she said that she would be getting more testing done either at the Airforce Academy or Fort Carson. That they would be contacting me about her appointment. I go talk to Dax's pscologist and discuss what hass been goign on with him. She thinks he either has ADHD, mood/anxiety disorder, or contect disorder and he would need more testing done and come up with a plan to deal with whatever he might have. She gives me a list of the best testers here in the Springs. I figured it would not be a big deal getting him in but most could not get him in til the middle of October and I dont know if I will be able to deal with this til then. I got lucky though cause one of the pyscologist that test and treats them could get him in at the end of August so I jumped on it. So I get the letter in the mail stating Trisha's audiology appooint is August 10 at 8 am and I am not allowed to bring any other kids. So trying to reschedule her was a true hassel 3 hours later I got her rescheduled for the end of August at Fort Carson. On top of all the kids issues that are happening and their appointments I have to put off my yearly appointment for another month because I cant find time to go with all of their appointments. I say to myself I have put it off for 4 years what is another month but this is something I really need to stop putting off and just go already. Stressed to the max leave it to me to wait til the weekend before they start school to go get their school supplies which costed me an arm and a leg. Then I am having problems with a lady a few doors down. Instead of talking to me like an adult about my dog she acts like a child. I am a person if you talk to me like an adult I will take care of the issue. However if you just assume I know there is a problem and think I am just ignoring its your problem because I did not know there was a problem so how am I suppose to knwo to fix it. So after I got this nasty little letter on my door yesterday I decied I have had enough with her. I go down to talk to her and instead of talking she has an attitude and immediatly starts yelling I can not and choose not to deal with people like her to much drama bs. She said she would continue to keep pestering me since I am not dealing with the situation. So I assume thats harrassment. I call the local police department and two and half hours later they show up. Thinking I have the right to ask someone to stay off my properity if I so choose to do so I guess I was completely wrong. Since my dog woke her up she has the right to come over here and talk to me however she so chooses to talk to me. I still think its bs but whatever. I am going to go invest in a no treaspassing sign and a bb gun and if she thinks she can continue to bother me she is all wrong cause i have the right to shoot if she treaspasses. Im thinking about taking a gun safety coarse but I am kinda leary about having a gun in the house with the kids. I have been putting Lucy my dog inside everynight now so if she says its my dog she is dead wrong. So on top of all the stress goign on I took the kids to IHOP yesterday and broke a tooth man can't I just catch a break. Times like these I wish my husband was home or I at least could just pick up the phone and call him. I miss you Johnathon Leon.

Visitors

My bestie Jen came and seen me for just about two weeks. I was so excited that someone was coming to keep me company while my husband was gone. I had been counting down for over a month now for her to come. I had a pretty much full house. It was Jen, her sister Jessica for a week, and her four kids D.J., Katelyn, Tyler, and Cody. I loved every minute of it even the fighting amongst the kids. The time flew by as she was here. Probably because we were so busy I think we had maybe 2 down days if even that. It was nice being able to have adult conversation daily with someone. Someone to help you around the house. Help prepare meals and help clean up afterwards. I don't think she realized how much it meant to me her coming to see me. I have been having a real rough time with John being gone this time and not knowing if anyone is going to come see you while he is gone makes you more depressed about the situation. So that she came and stayed with me for a long period of time made probably this whole deployment have some rays of sunshine in it. I just wished she lived closer so I could see her more often. I am looking at what to look forward to next we have, school starting, the boys' birthdays, R and R I'm most excited about this one, holidays, my trip to Kentucky to see Jen, and then it will be time to start counting down til this deployment is over with. Now my house is full of kids having a sleep over and Monday we will be preparing to start school and this mama is very excited.

9 years and counting...........

Once in awhile right in the middle of an ordinary life love gives us a fairy tale

Nine years ago today I was getting my hair and make up done. Getting a big white dress on which took three people to get on me. I was extremely nervous to walk down the aisle. As soon as I seen his face all the nerves went away. The day I said I do made me one of the happiest days of my life. We may have been young and had no clue what we were getting ourselves into.

The years have flown by and it seems like yesterday when I was saying I do. What a journey we have been through together. I have fallen more in love with him through the years and I didn't even think that was possible. Don't get me wrong we have had our rough times but who hasn't it has made us a stronger couple.

Johnathon Leon I love you with all my heart. We might be many miles apart but your still in my heart. You make me one of the happiest people alive. If you were not apart of my life I would be so lost. You complete me and can't wait til your home again.

Your love provides me shelter,
from the rain, hail, and storms of life,
that I face as I race through life.

Your embrace provides me warmth,
from the cold, harshness and stings of society,
that I endure as I race through life.

Your care provides me a garden,
where nourishment, beauty and joy blooms,
that I appreciate as I race through life.

Your eyes provide me a mirror,
where illumination, reflection and clarity speak,
that I look upon as I race through life.

Your soul provides me a key to,
where values, contentment and belonging reside,
that I grasp onto as I race through life.

Your love as I race through life,
Proves to be resilient and immeasurable,
On days where I lose sight of my bearings,
You are like a lighthouse beckoning me home.

For all that you are and how you are with me,
I'm now sending you a bright love signal,
You're someone I'll hold onto for dear life,
As I race through the rest of my life!

Time for an update I think so

So we are officially 2 months down on this deployment. Some weeks have dragged and some have flown by. The kids still have days they miss their daddy terribly. So I'm so excited right now because my best friend left Kentucky this morning to head this way she should be here sometime Wednesday and be staying for a couple weeks. I have missed living by her and this visit will be extremely nice and much needed. I am so extremely happy we did a weigh in and tapping the other day since starting my working out I have lost 22 pounds and have lost 15 inches. My biggest lost in 3 weeks was my waist it was almost 4 inches. I have been extremely dedicated and knowing all my hard work is paying off. I am so ready to see where I will be at the end of this year hopefully I will be able to buy a cute two piece for John and I's trip to Hawaii next summer. I got my anniversary gift the other day it was a couple weeks early but I love it he got me a nook color. I have already read one book and have started the next. Hopefully I keep on top of the blog I have been a slacker and hoping to get a camera soon.

4th of July

Today as the 4th of July I am sitting outside while my older two are playing and my youngest is in bed. The nice Colorado breeze blowing my flag and my big yellow ribbon on my tree. To remember all that have fought for this country and all that are fighting for this country. Holidays make me miss my husband so much and I might be in a funk but its because of him being gone I can respect this holiday so much more. Its because of soldiers like him that are selfless enough to give up their time with their families and friends to go off to keep us safe at home. They should take pride in what they do for this country. I am very proud that I can call my husband my hero for everything he does at work and at home. I just want to take my time and express how much I appreciate all the soldiers and families for what they give up to make us a great nation.