So it seems like if anything can go wrong in this deployment it surely is going to happen to me. Both vehicles are still having issues hoping they can get worked out soon. My parents came to see me and as soon as they walked in the door on Thursday they find out my dad's mom was getting rushed to the er. They gave her til the end of the weekend to live. Dax's birthday party was Saturday and five minutes after walking into the party my dad gets the phone call she had passed away. My parents left a day early to go help with funneral arrangements. Finally getting some answers with Dax and I guess I am finally ready to talk about them. Dax has always had some serious anger issues I always thought they were from daddy leaving so much. That is some of it after him starting one fire after John left and and tried starting another one I decied its time for something to happen. Dax has finally been diagnosed with ADHD we are getting some steps in place for him and its so nice finally figuring it out. He has been seeing a thearapist weekly so it has been helping some. I went to the doctor a few weeks ago for my yearly gyno visit. It had been 4 years since I had been. The past six months I have been having some womenly issues and had been trying to get in but sometime its so hard getting in. I finaly go see my doctor and she does the exam and I tell her everything going on she says to me Ashlie I am pretty concerned. I am going to be sending you to do lab work, setting up an ultrasound, and sending a referal in for you to see an actual gynocologist. She says its possible you can have uterine cancer. Something that you do not want to hear at all especially while your husband is thousands of miles away. I have done lab work. I go in tomorrow for my two ultrasounds and next Wednesday I will be going in to see the gynocologist. They are not releasing any results til I go see the doctor next Wednesday which makes me more anxiesios. I have been so stressed with these upcoming doctor aptoinments. I often cry at night just wanting to be in my husbands arms so he can tell me its going to be okay. This is something I never want to do on my own but at this moment I dont have an option. I only have a month til my husband comes home on r and r and I am hoping when he goes back things will go better and time flies for the end.
