My Big Goal For The Year

I have to say right now I am totally disappointed in myself. I am the heaviest I have ever been even 9 months pregnant not by much but at least while I was pregnant I had an excuse right well not really. I got on the scale today and about cried. I don't think I am brave enough to release how much I truly weigh. I always said to myself I would not allow myself to ever get to 200 pounds I am not there yet and do not want to be there. I want to become a better me. One I can look at myself and say look at me. One that my kids see me exercising and be proud and want to stay active in their life. One that when my husband comes home he says that's my hot wife lol. I know I am a gubber sometimes. So here it goes I drank the last Dr. Pepper in my house today there is not going to be any in my home so if you come over and expect it to be here wont be. Its to big of a temptation of mine I cant say I am only going to have one a week or I will be sucked under again and drinking one a day. Tomorrow starts my better eating habits I did buy my kids some goodies but I have to stay out of them no matter what. I bought some better options for me to have a snack a day. My total weight loss goal for this year is 55 pounds if I make it to 50 I would be proud but want to make it a total weight loss of 55 no more. I have already walking half jogging on the treadmill I don't get very far on the jogging side of things. My exercise goal is I want to be able to do 5 miles all together on the treadmill I know I will not be able to do it all together right now so I will split it up. Even though I will be splitting it up I will still get the 5 miles in that day. I will also be going to the YMCA with Christine and any one else that will be joining us and doing an hour there 6 days a week. Sunday will be my rest day. I know this is not going to be easy by any means I might fall down a couple times but I am more determined now then I ever have. The last time I seriously exercised was grade school. I am tired of going places with my kids and getting tired easy cause I am out of shape I want to be able to keep up with my kids even though it will be a little bit difficult keeping up with Dax no matter how much I exercise. I know I know not very smart of me to put this on the Internet someone can see me and say man you haven't done much but that's what I want. I want people to push me to get me to my goals when I have my down days to remind me what I am doing this for. So tomorrow is the beginning of my new year to become a new me. Go me!!!!!!!!